...so...i only realize how much i dislike my family when i attempt to opt to do something w/them on my 1 day off a week...i dont like that...i dont like them...makes u think why am i still here...no choice i guess...makes me angry and depressed...i hate life...sometimes feels like i dont know what i want cuz well nothing is possible...how can u want things when u have no choice in the matter...i think i have to go to a temp agency to get a new job...im sick of this shit...waiting to see if someone wants to hire me...oh and i hate my job...its not even that i hate it except my boss is a moron, my coworker socializes too much, the work is so basic, and i get paid shit...all seem like good reason to hate a job...i feel like i wanna vomit...why does society say to go to college when i could be makin the same shit money if i never went...wtf is up w/that...i dont even know what im gonna do w/my life...i think im gonna go cry in a hot shower...

...should be doin my hw (omg hw after a yr) but im doin a quiz...ha...anyways...

Here's 69 confessions...


1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
eric, or rolo

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
always

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
talker

4. Do you take compliments well?
depends who from

5. Do you play Sudoku?
very recently started...i can only do mediums tho

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
if it wasnt winter and cold and snowy

7. Do you like to ride horses?
i have a few times, i loved it

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
sure, i grew to not like it cuz no one showers the whole time

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
i dunno...dont think i played lots of games

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, what would you do ??
uh, no...cuz im basically married

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
what do i care, my beliefs r nil

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
pursue

14. Use three words to describe yourself?
Christina, me, i

15. Do any songs make you cry?
no

16. Are you continuing your education?
i just entered skl again

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
i would like to shoot a gun

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
my cell to call the fire department

19. How often do you read books?
not too often, sadly

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
mostly about the future

21. What is your favorite children's book?
i dont remember

22. What color are your eyes?
brown

23. How tall are you?
5'4"

24. Where is your dream house located?
the dirty jerz

27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
never

28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
a few months ago

30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
newark

32. Do you like mustard?
love it

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
sleep, but since i cant as much as i want to, so i eat

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
a little bit of both

35. How long does it take you in the shower?.
15 min, except my saturday showers where i use a sugar scrub

36. Can you do the splits?
i dont think anymore, kinda

37. What movie do you want to see right now?
pan's labirynth

39. What did you do for New Year's?
stayed home

40. Do you think The Grudge was scary?
it looked stupid

42. Do you own a camera phone?
sure

44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
um, they didnt have cheerleaders in the mountains of PR

45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
E

47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
about 7

48. Do you like care bears?.
not really

49. What do you buy at the movies?
I HATE THE MOVIE THEATRE

50. Do you know how to play poker?
poorly

51. Do you wear your seatbelt?
always

52. What do you wear to sleep?
undies

53. Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
they found a dead mofia guy behind the dinner once

54. How many meals do you eat in a day?
3

55. Is your tongue pierced?
ew no

56. Do you always read MySpace bulletins?
sometimes

58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
depends on my mood 

59. Ever been to L.A.?
nah

60. Did you eat a cookie today?
nope

61. Do you use cuss words in other languages?
no

62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
i havent done either in yrs

63. Do you hate chocolate?
its ok

64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
anything we talk about at length

65. Are you a gullible person?
not usually

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
i think so

67. If you could have any job (assuming you have the skills) what would it be:
skl psych

68. Are you easy to get along with?
not really

69. What is your favorite time of day?
evening

...and its HOMEWORK TIME...

...lost an earring...thats super annoying since i havent lost an earring for a long time *knock on wood 3x*...i knocked over my little snapple cap w/like 4 pairs of earrings and i couldnt find 2 after i dropped 4...found 1...even went thru my nasty ass garbage can and cant find 1...wouldnt be so bad if i didnt wear them all the damn time...i even remember who gave them to me a LONG ass time ago...like 10yrs ago...however, if it really is in my garbage, i kinda dont wanna wear it anymore...(my garbage makes me gag, like all garbage, cuz i dump my contact fluid on it)...maybe its time to buy some new studs...im so dumb...

...so yeah...whats goin on xanga...i click my public view and i cant freakin see u...ur bein a subborn bitch...lately, ive just been tired and frustrated...got into a fight w/my boss yesterday but he wont yell at me when i turn bitch...i would shut down this account, but i paid for it and i like it...but WHY cant i see u...r u trying to break up w/me?...someone called me a "shot" today...i think...wasnt sure what it meant, he said it was good...ha...i wish i could go out tonight, but i still have to work sat mornings...5 left...woohoo...i think i snack too much...its as if my new years resolutions r out the freakin window...i dunno...frustrated i suppose...

duh...got my site to work again...

...so...interview this morning...boy did i feel inadequate...i was fine w/the woman i interviewed with the last time, who actually remembered me...i was fine w/the guy in charge, he reminded me of the DA on The Medium...ha...so that was cool...the freakin DA killed me...he was awful, only cuz he was a freakin lawyer...he kept tryin to read into what i was saying, but he kept reading me wrong...ugh...fuckin men/lawyers...oh, and they were spanish askin if i knew spanish, so boy did i feel like a bad freakin spic...no, i dont speak spanish, but im learning...SO stupid...i dunno...i left feelin like shit...to be fair, it was my 3rd interview in my life...2 for another job that i just knew i wasnt gonna get...2 for this job...and 1 for the current job that consisted of my uncle saying "she's hired, right?"...i wish i had more interviews like that...haha...how the hell do ppl get jobs these days...i feel like im not right for anything...ok, i felt more right about this job than any...but i dunno...i just felt, i dunno, they rnt gonna call me back...i think u know if they liked u or not...while i felt that 2 of them liked me, i know the woman liked me, that freakin lawyer...ugh, but i cant scrutanize the situation...its over, just gotta wait for my rejection letter...lately, everything feels like poopy, but i think thats just me being over pessimistic...i am glad i made this private tho, they seem like the type to google me...ha...ok gotta do that to this site...AH...anyways...

...i just realized the dumbest thing ever...its really stupid...ready...my friends totally werent white in hs...ha...its like i dont remember that...not that i remember them being a race they rnt...but i was listening to the radio the other day and they were talkin about how prejudice everyone is and even if u dont realize it, u r...but the more i think about it, the more i forgot about it...i dont understand why its such a big deal...whats even more ironic, to me, is that several of these ppl grew apart from me cuz i wasnt the same race as them...i dunno...i havent seen some of these ppl in a while, and i go on myspace and look at their pics and im like, oh thats what u look like...ha...i dunno...race is a funny topic...everyone wants to be equal but no one wants to be the same...sad to say, u cant have it both ways...i just forgot how prejudice ppl can really be...i guess i was lucky and my parents didnt start sayin racist things until i was about 18...yeah...just thinkin...mere note...

...so yeah...who the hell breaks their tooth in their sleep...ME...got it fixed today...its all because i wanted to falsify an excuse to use a sick day tomorrow...hopefully nothing else happens and i can say im gettin my tooth fixed even tho i did it today...its kinda funny lookin...but its ok, it doesnt looked broken atleast...turns out a got a freakin overbite...no one ever told me i had one...yep...so yeah...maybe that explains why my smile can be gummy sometimes...ha...anyways...lets see how many other things can go wrong before my interview tom...im waiting for them...its bound to happen...when 1 thing goes wrong, i feel like everything is gonna go wrong...stupid self...anyways...gotta prepare for life...

...so yeah...resolutions r so goin down the toilet...(1) ive been stress shopping...(2) which means i havent prepared to move out...(3) too lazy to clean my room...(4) keep eatin too much food daily...(5) def not spending free time better cuz i sit around and watch tv and not learn spanish...(6) cant plan vacations cuz eric cant get his vacation time and i dont know whats goin on w/my work...(7) dont know what is goin on w/a new job and i feel totally directionless...(8) learning spanish is so annoying...just feel like such a butt only 9 days into the new year...i havent done anything...i dunno...such a butt...im such a butt i dont even feel like bitching more...stupid 2007...maybe its just stupid me...

...got a phone call today from the gov't tellin me they extended my list and i have an interview next friday in hackensack...WORD...very exciting...except its in the criminal division...not cool, but i guess its no diff than what im doin right now, so i can deal until i transfer...that may muss up my vacation plans...but during the interview ill ask if they r gonna be a problem and then "see what i can do"...anyways...i was SO suped...still am...i want my foot in the door...since i thought i lost the job in november, ive been feeling very lost...what am i gonna do, where am i gonna go, what is gonna be my future...ya know...i mean, i def have a backup plan, so no worries yet...startin skl, waitin on jobs...i dunno...should be higher on the list too cuz they hired some ppl already...was 29...then they only got 19 callbacks, so i was 19...now i dont know where i am...they did hire quite a few  ppl already, i believe, so we'll see...waiting to get called back from the person i know that works in the same freakin office in the same branch...so thats is good atleast...so anyways...hopefully ill be celebrating next weekend after a good interview...so im bein happy now and doin some gay blog quizes to waste the time...

A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y

1. Do you like anyone? sure
2. Do they know it? sure

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

4. Had sex: sure
5. Sang to someone: i was singing the spam song the other day to eric
6. Gotten sick: from booze
7. Been hugged: everyone hugs on newyears, and i didnt like it
8. Felt stupid: um, oh, yes yes i did
9. Talked to an ex: all the freakin time
10. Missed someone: always
11. Failed a test: not yet
12. Got your hair cut: before xmas
13. Danced: dont dance, but i hopped around today

U N I Q U E

16. Nervous habit? shopping and eating
17. Are you double jointed? in my hips, but its painful
18. Can you roll your tongue? sure
19. Can you raise one eyebrow? of course
20. Can you cross your eyes? yes but i dont like to
21. Do you make your bed daily? never
22. Do you think you are unique? we r all unique in the same way

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

23. Said "I Love you"? sure
24. Given money to a homeless person? not personally, i dont think
26. Waited all night for a phone call? yes ugh
28. Sat and looked at the stars? sure
31. You cook your own food? ive been tryin to lately
32. You do your own chores? ha, no, but some i guess
33. You like beef jerky? LOVE IT
35. You're happy with your life? its gettin there
36. You own a dog? i wish
37. You spend your money wisely? NO, but i will, esp w/a new job
38. You like to swim? i miss swimming
39. When you get bored do you call a friend? nah

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S

41. Flowers or angels? what? how is that a comparison...flowers
42. Gray or black? both
43. Color or black and white photos? everyone looks better in black and white
44. Lust or love? Love
45. Sunrise or sunset? both r good
46. M&Ms or Skittles? Skittles
48. Staying up late or waking up early? stay up late, only if i can sleep late
49. Being hot or cold: depends on how i feel
50. Winter or Fall? Fall
51. Left or right? Right
52. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends? meh
53. Sunshine or rain? depends on how i feel...it sucks sleepin in on a sunny day

M O R E - H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S

Sleep in a bed of the opposite sex? sure
Hooked up in the woods? um, when i was in hs
Stolen money from a friend? nah
Slept naked? tried it
Been in a fist fight? i punched eric once
Had a crush on a teacher? sure
Been on an airplane? sure
Slept all day? not past noon since i was a frosh
Missed someone so much it hurt? yep
Been lonely? yep
Cheated in a game? ha, yes
Been to the ER? no, knock on wood
Been in a car accident? not in a long ass time, knock on wood
Gotten detention? a few times
Cried yourself to sleep? not in a while
Sung in the shower? not really
Kissed a complete stranger? ugh, once
Laughed so hard you cried? sure
Regretted hurting someone? ive apologized for all ive done

1. Name one person who made you smile today?
the lady from the public defenders office

2. What were you doing at 8 this morning?
working

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
just gettin home

4. What is something that happened in 1994?
12yo, 7th grade...i think that was when my greatgrandpa died

5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
hey i got a job interview

6. How many different things did you drink today?
flavored water, plain water, diet dr pepper

7. what color is your hairbrush ?
black and silver

8. What was the last thing you bought?
clinique simply perfume

9. What was the last gift you received?
honey sticks from my bf

10. What color is your front door?
black

11. Where do you keep your change?
my old lady change purse

12. What was the weather like today?
gloomy

13. What is the best ice-cream flavor?
chocolate covered waffle cone

14. What is something you are excited about tomorrow?
eric comes over

15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
the other week i saw these wierd little pieces of rainbow but it wasonly w/my sunglasses on...strange

16. Whats your favorite gardening tool?
the hoe ha

17. Do you have a sister?
hell no

18. Are you very random?
sometimes

19. Do you want to cut your hair?
kinda

20. Are you over the age of 25?
not yet

21. Do you talk a lot?
sometimes...when i do at work, they dont always understand my english

22. Do you watch The OC?
it got cancelled and i never watched it

23. Does your screen name have an 'x' in it?
one of htem does but i dont use them anymore

24. Do you know anyone called Steve?
im talkin to one right now

25. Do you make up your own words?
once in a while...more like making up new meanings to words

26. Are you ticklish?
thats what i say cuz i dont like bein touched

27 .Are you typically a jealous person?
not so much anymore

28. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'M'
ur Mom

29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter A'?
???

30. Whos the 1st person on your dialed calls list?
eric

31. What did the last text messages you received say?
congradulations...call u later to discuss ur good news...

32. Do you chew on your straws?
i stick them bw my teeth, gross

33. Do you have curly frizzy hair?
it gets a little poofy in the damness

34. Whats the next concert your going to?
im waitin for someone to come around

35. Who is the shittiest person in your life?
my shitty ass boss...one of my family members...

35. Who is the coolest person in your life?
i dont think i know cool ppl anymore...but how many ppl really say that anymore, except about kids

36. What is something you say a lot?
i dunno...nothing really

37. What is the last thing you ate?
tictac

38. Have you seen the movie 'Donnie Darko'?
it was good if u knew what was goin on

39. Do you have work tomorrow?
stupid 2nd job...only a few more weeks

40. Is marriage in your future?
i believe so

41. When was the last time you said 'I love you' to someone?
last night

42. What should you be doing right now?
studying

43. Do you have a nickname?
no

45. Are you a heavy sleeper?
not anymore

46. When was the last time you used a skateboard?
almost 10yrs ago

47. What is the best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?
little miss sunshine

48. Is there anyone you like right now?
sure

49. When was the last time you did the dishes?
NEVER

50. Are you currently depressed?
im SUPPPPED

...so yeah...cuz i love vacations and ive been stuck takin crap vacations for the last 2 years...this year is no different cuz im poor...so yeah...the tentative plan: april  = 4 day weekend at niagra falls...june = 4 day weekend in wildwood...september = a 5 day cruise to bermuda...so yeah...im excited already...yep...very exciting...gonna cost me a little but ya know...I NEED A NEW JOB...its so ridiculous in the office...the boss is busy not answering his phone and making mistakes to pay attention to his job, esp when his ex gf is running around the office...the asst boss is too busy answering her cell phone to do any real work, esp w/her 10 15min cigarette breaks a day, its hard to get ur work done...then i have ppl from other departments acting like im their secratary...so work is just generally agrivating...cannot wait to freakin leave...but then i have to have another job lined up...gotta call my uncle, maybe in feb, to see if i can work for him...i only hope he can offer me a decant salary...so yeah...i think thats the end of my rant?...anyways...