...yep, been a while, as usual...im pooped, always pooped...whats new?...nothing much...um, made 4 doc appts, mostly for annual checkups...wisdom teeth r comin in, not cool...went to island beach state park yesterday, that was nice...recommend it to everyone...its gonna be a busy 2 months...bw doc appts, vacation, wedding, and what not...just need to start applying to new jobs...its sad, i keep saying it and keep not doin it...just gotta actually do it this time, cuz it doesnt look like im gettin a raise...super sad...one of a handful of ppl w/a ba, and i get nothing...fuckinA...anyways...i think thats it for now...so sad...

...so yeah...been a little while...sometimes im in such a bad mood i dont feel like posting, rarely im in such a good mood i dont feel like posting...im inbetweeny now, so here i am...made a friend, sounds sad huh...ha...girl from hs...met up w/her again randomly a few months ago and we've been hangin ever since...kinda badass...been a little while since ive had a group of regular friends...its nice to go out w/the same few ppl and hang out...we've even become regulars at a bar (apples in kenilworth)...its been good...need to take some pics of things...always feel like the wiener w/the camera, but ya know...parents r gone and it hasnt been like the last time...the brother has been a bit more respectful, which is good...except he killed some bugs on the floor and left them...who does that...i wish i had some estate jewelry...ha...everyone seems to get lucky but me...eh, i guess u gotta look to get lucky...anyways, busy week, again...wed = dinner w/poppy, thurs = drinks w/the group, fri = parents home from egypt, sat = eric, sun = mothers day/family gathering...so when wednesday hits its gonna go fast...gotta clean tonight a little and tom some more...gettin lazy...vacation in wildwood in 6 weeks...so lookin forward to that...goin to the beach in 2 weeks...sounds like a plan...on another note...im torn about bringin out the bf...the new/old friend asked when the bf was comin out...somehow i dont think i really wanna bring him out w/me...i think i like hangin out alone...i also dont like how i act when im drunk infront of the bf...i dunno, its ok infront of others but i get embarrassed infront of the bf...odd, cuz we get drunk together but i guess its a little diff...somehow i dont like when ppl meet him...i think im embarrassed of his occupation for someone his age...i dunno...when things change, ill be more ok...but anyways...was supposed to start cleaning 25min ago...boo...

...so yeah...been a little while...sometimes im in such a bad mood i dont feel like posting, rarely im in such a good mood i dont feel like posting...im inbetweeny now, so here i am...made a friend, sounds sad huh...ha...girl from hs...met up w/her again randomly a few months ago and we've been hangin ever since...kinda badass...been a little while since ive had a group of regular friends...its nice to go out w/the same few ppl and hang out...we've even become regulars at a bar (apples in kenilworth)...its been good...need to take some pics of things...always feel like the wiener w/the camera, but ya know...parents r gone and it hasnt been like the last time...the brother has been a bit more respectful, which is good...except he killed some bugs on the floor and left them...who does that...i wish i had some estate jewelry...ha...everyone seems to get lucky but me...eh, i guess u gotta look to get lucky...anyways, busy week, again...wed = dinner w/poppy, thurs = drinks w/the group, fri = parents home from egypt, sat = eric, sun = mothers day/family gathering...so when wednesday hits its gonna go fast...gotta clean tonight a little and tom some more...gettin lazy...vacation in wildwood in 6 weeks...so lookin forward to that...goin to the beach in 2 weeks...sounds like a plan...on another note...im torn about bringin out the bf...the new/old friend asked when the bf was comin out...somehow i dont think i really wanna bring him out w/me...i think i like hangin out alone...i also dont like how i act when im drunk infront of the bf...i dunno, its ok infront of others but i get embarrassed infront of the bf...odd, cuz we get drunk together but i guess its a little diff...somehow i dont like when ppl meet him...i think im embarrassed of his occupation for someone his age...i dunno...when things change, ill be more ok...but anyways...was supposed to start cleaning 25min ago...boo...