June 6, 2006

• why wont it stop

  Part 1: The Birth of You
  
  Were you a planned baby?
  im in belief so
  
  Were you the first?
  yep
  
  Who was present at your birth?
  my parents, docs, nurses, and i believe a few relatives
  
  Were your parents married when you were born?
  of course
  
  What is your birthdate?
  08-18-1983
  
  Part 2: The Family
  
  How would you describe your family?
  dysfunctional in a completely average way
  
  Are your parents married? Divorced? Separated?
  half surprisingly happily married
  
  Siblings or an only child?
  1 sibling
  
  What are your siblings names and ages?
  jeff and he just techinically became a grownup at 21
  
  Which parent do you get along with best?:
  my dad cuz hes just so medicated
  
  What do you fight about?
  um, why dont i go back to skl, why doesnt ur bf have a good job, why doesnt ur brother anything
  
  Do you have step parents?
  nope
  
  Part 3: The Friends
  
  Do you have more than one best friend?
  no
  
  What do you like to do when you are together?
  everything
  
  Do you share the same interests?
  slightly varying tastes but we can deal w/the differences, except bruce springstein, will not deal w/it
  
  Part 4: Your Personality
  
  How high/low is your self esteem?
  its somewhere in the middle...lately ive been feeling pretty bad, esp w/the damp weather and the recent slight weight gain
  
  Do you get depressed about things easily?
  sometimes randomly, sometimes when u think, most of the time im veggin out so i dont feel anything...if u dont think, u dont feel...
  
  Are you and extrovert (outgoing) or and introvert (shy)?
  ive turned into a huge introvert, unless very intoxicated
  
  Are you happy?
  well, when im alone im not happy...
  
  Do you live life to the fullest?:
  not at all, its a fuckin shame...wish i had the time and money to do it
  
  Part 5: Appearance
  
  What would you change about your appearance if you could?:
  dont necessarily need to lose weight but gain muscle and well, look like me but better
  
  Do you have any piercings besides your ears?:
  yeah...from my more reckless time...prolly wont pull em out tho cuz they rnt bothering anyone
  
  Describe your hair.:
  medium brown, grown out layers, quite shiny (not in the damn weather)...
  
  What make-up do you wear?:
  a little blush, loose powder, under eye lightener, eye shadow, mascara, lip gloss
  
  How do you dress?:
  now that i work, like a girl...but very conservative and cover all
  
  Part 6: The Past
  
  Were you a strange child?:
  no, but i always valued my alone time
  
  What did you use to love that you no longer do?:
  hang out w/ppl
  
  Do you have the same friends?:
  ive reconnected a little, but not really
  
  Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?:
  i cant really think of anything, but that was when all my ocd's were comin out
  
  Part 7: The Future
  
  What is your ambition?:
  psyD
  
  Are you scared of growing old?:
  im afraid of eric dying first and leaving me alone when im still relatively young
  
  Do you want to get married?:
  of course, minus the 4 planned divorces
  
  Part 8: The Outdoors
  
  Do you prefer indoors or outdoors?:
  i like being outside...but i love cuddling in my bed when its cool in my room
  
  What is your favorite season:
  fall, warm days cool nights
  
  Weather?:
  80 degrees light humidity warm breeze
  
  Do you like walking in the rain?:
  its gotta be really warm rain, but i love it
  
  Part 9: Food
  
  Are you a vegetarian?:
  sometimes i go into phases when i just happen to eat veggies...but i still like my meats once in a while...
  
  What is your favorite food?:
  EVERYTHING with fat or sugar or both
  
  What food makes you want to gag?:
  anything kinda gooey...not specifically firm or soft...yeah, ew
  
  What is your favorite dessert?:
  i NEVER used to eat dessert, but now i LOVE it...i need a dessert martini or frozen drink and my fav is a tiramisu
  
  What is your favorite restaurant?:
  any place that isnt fast food and i dont get harassed
  
  Are you a fussy eater?:
  not too much, just the food consistancy thing
  
  Part 10: Relationships and Love
  
  you single or taken?:
  way taken
  
  Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?:
  i live my week for my one day w/the bf
  
  Do you believe in love at first sight?:
  ha, hell no...i thought eric was kinda icky at first
  
  Part 11: Experiences
  
  What was one of your greatest experiences?:
  going to the galapagos islands...dont think ill top that any time soon
  
  What was one of your worst?:
  im not sure...luckily i havent clung to anything bad
  
  Have you ever done drugs?:
  its been like 3 yrs now that ive stayed the f away
  
  Have you ever thought you were going to die?:
  once when i got so high i couldnt walk back into my house and was pukin and thought my stomach was bleeding but it was just pasta sauce, damn paranoa
  
  Have you ever suffered from depression?:
  short periods of it, but nothing serious
  
  Do you get jealous easily?
  not anymore...im pretty comfortable and confident about stuff
  
  What have u been doing these past few days?
  work, tv, not sleeping...not anything i should do...
  
  Last movie u watched?
  um, some crap movie on tv and lord of war
  
  Fave song?
  i just skimmed all 1500 songs on my ipod today
  
  What are you planning to do this weekend?
  see my baby, buy a dads day gift
  
  Do you club?
  uh, no
  
  Do you smoke?
  not since last july YAY
  
  Any people in-love with u right now?
  id like to think someone is
  
  Do you prefer IM's or talking on the phone?
  actually, ive grown to hate the phone despite all my 5 hr phone calls in hs...either im or in person, dont put me on the phone
  
  Are you missing someone right now?
  yeah, but ill be ok
  
  What are u doing right now?
  watching last comic standing, finishing cleaning, picking out what to wear tom
  
  When was the last time you received a im?
  i dunno, yesterday
  
  Five words to say about you?
  'leave me the fuck alone'
  
  Name your best friends:
  u already know it
  
  Who do you want to kiss right now?
  see above
  
  One person u want to spend the rest of ur life with?
  see above
  
  What were u doing before this?
  same as what im doing now
  
  What are you thinking now?
  i gotta go to bed
  
  What did you do last night?
  same thing
  
  What did you last say to a friend last night?
  bye
  
  What attracts you to the opposite sex?
  i dont remember anymore
  
  What makes you happy?
  my sundays
  
  What are you wearing now?
  pjs
  
  Who was the last person you talked to?
  briefly eric and my dad
  
  When is your birthday?
  see very begining
  
  When did you last smile?
  im watching last coming standing, so i smiled a couple times
  
  Why did you answer this?
  cuz im makin up for all the time i spent not doing a survey
  
  When will you marry?
  when eric gets a good job
  
  When did you last receive a gift?
  RU sent me my diploma and i treated myself to some new clothes
  
  when did you last drink a alcoholic beverage?
  i had 3 martinis on sunday
  
  I AM:
  tired
  
  I WANT:
  to finish my chores
  
  I WISH:
  i had my own place
  
  I HAVE:
  to get up
  
  I HAD:
  a to get up a long time ago
  
  I HATE:
  wasting all this damn time, esp since i had a half day and im still not done
  
  I FEAR:
  failure and fat
  
  I HEAR:
  a comic
  
  I WONDER:
  if im gonna get to bed b4 1030
  
  I REGRET:
  wasting a lot of time
  
  I LOVE:
  ur mom
  
  I AM NOT:
  going to bed by 1030
  
  I DANCE:
  like an idiot
  
  I SING:
  like an ass, but quietly
  
  I CRY:
  from sappy stupid movies that shouldnt make me cry but its only cuz real life hasnt made me cry in a long while
  
  I AM NOT ALWAYS:
  pleasant, but u knew that
  
  I WRITE:
  cuz i have to at work
  
  I WIN:
  at losing
  
  I LOSE:
  at life
  
  I NEED:
  to hit it big
  
  I SHOULDN'T:
  not excersize
  
  YES or NO:
  nah
  
  YOU KEEP A DIARY:
  im lucky i still have my xanga and my weekly planner
  
  YOU LIKE TO COOK:
  grilled cheese in a sandwich maker
  
  YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE:
  well, someone has to know unless its a wierd gross secret
  
  YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE:
  i suppose
  
  THE WEIRDEST PERSON YOU KNOW:
  ppl that havent changed since hs
  
  THE LOUDEST PERSON YOU KNOW:
  i dunno
  
  THE SEXIEST PERSON YOU KNOW?
  no one
  
  THE CUTEST PERSON YOU KNOW:
  i dunno, u rnt cute past a certain age...but i guess i have some cute little cousins
  
  CLOSEST FRIEND:
  errrr
  
  THE PERSON THAT KNOWS THE MOST ABOUT YOU:
  errrrrrrr
  
  DO YOU?:
  
  HAVE A CRUSH:
  i suppose
  
  GET MOTION SICKNESS:
  not really in cars, but on boats
  
  THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK:
  i wish
  
  GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS:
  for the most part
  
  LIKE THUNDERSTORMS:
  not the most recent one
  
  CURRENT HAIR COLOR:
  brown
  
  EYE COLOR:
  brown
  
  BIRTHPLACE:
  rahway nj
  
  FAVORITE
  
  NUMBER:
  23
  
  COLOR:
  blue, black, grey
  
  DAY:
  sunday or early sat night
  
  MONTH:
  october, september
  
  SONG:
  i dunno, all of them
  
  FOOD:
  anything i eat
  
  SEASON:
  fall
  
  SPORT:
  walking
  
  DRINK:
  cosmo, yingling
  
  PREFERENCES
  
  CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT:
  cuddle
  
  CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE:
  hot chocolate milk w/booze
  
  DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE:
  both
  
  VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE:
  vanilla
  
  IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
  
  CRIED?
  no, well teared from being tired
  
  HELPED SOMEONE?
  thats my damn job ass
  
  BOUGHT SOMETHING?
  luckily, NO
  
  GOTTEN SICK?
  a little
  
  GONE TO THE MOVIES?
  no
  
  GONE OUT FOR DINNER?
  see previous entry
  
  SAID "I LOVE YOU"?
  just did
  
  WRITTEN A REAL LETTER:
  wrote a report
  
  TALKED TO AN EX?
  not in a few days
  
  MISSED AN EX?
  actually i was lookin at old pics and they made me sad
  
  WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?
  yeah
  
  HAD A SERIOUS TALK?
  ha, no
  
  MISSED SOMEONE?
  yes
  
  HUGGED SOMEONE?
  last night
  
  FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?
  no
  
  Would you ever:
  
  Eat a bug?
  not on purpose
  
  Hang glide?
  um, no
  
  Kill someone?
  if i had to
  
  Have sex with someone of the same sex?
  um, not my thang
  
  Parachute from a plane?
  not at all
  
  Walk on hot coals?
  why
  
  Go out with someone for their looks?
  tried that once, it was bad
  
  For their reputation?
  um, no
  
  Be a vegetarian?
  not on purpose
  
  Wear plaid with stripes?
  i may have been dressed in that when i was little
  
  IM a stranger?
  i block all strangers that im me
  
  Sing Karaoke?
  if i was sloppy drunk
  
  Get drunk off your ass?
  havent done that in a while
  
  Run a red light?
  shhhhhhhhhhh
  
  Star in a porn video?
  no
  
  Dye your hair blue?
  been there done that
  
  Be on Survivor?
  hell no
  
  Wear makeup in public?
  duh
  
  Do you like a girl?
  i thought that said do u like being a girl...i was gonna say maybe...but i like a few girls, but its just friendly and its not really too many...

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