...so me and eric went to fridays in springfield, and it was awful...we got crammed btw 2 of the largest ppl ever and we were forced to sit on the same side of the table until the giant fatties left, and then the manager told me it was too bad and if i asked sooner he could have moved us...so basically he blamed me...so i made him cancel our order and left...he blew me off so bad, i was SO pissed...and i know we were only sat at that table cuz we were so skinny we could squeeze in...thats awful...so, moral of the weekend: DO NOT DINE OUT IN UNION OR ANY TOWN THAT TOUCHES UNION...i will now travel the extra 6-20 miles out of town so i can eat around thin, not ghetto/white trash w/their heads up their asses...thank you..

...i think lightening just struck the 3' metal pole in my backyard...it freaked me out and im sad...i dont wanna be home alone...mommy......

edit: so maybe i was wrong, i dont really know cuz no one else saw...there was no contact spot on the ground but something blew out the back light sensors and turned all the moss on the wall white...it was odd...didnt kill the birdies in the birdhouse tho...there was a fire by (what was known as) cumberland farms by baily park...we think it was that hideous monster house they were building...there was a fire by costco on dewey...lightening hit morris ave...there was another spot, but i dont remember...craziness...i dont remember when lightening has done all this damage...luckily it wasnt really on my block...i dunno...i really swore i saw that damn lightening hit the wall, but i must be wrong cuz there was no damage...i dunno...

someone tell me why they think its a good idea to close down 1 lane of rt 22 at 4pm when rush hour traffic is just starting...they keep doing this and doing this...its rifuckingdiculous...

i hate the holidays, why u ask, cuz of all the fuckin traffic...news choppers over the house, so annoying...damn trains and traffic...but its warm, so thats kickass...now i want a nice thunderstorm...

...im really sad for no good reason...why, i dunno...i think i miss someone...lots...

...for actual entry, eventually...

im SO mad...so i get my letter sayin the gov't wants me to sign up for an interview...then i get a letter today saying it was all a lie and its cancelled by the appointing authority...what does that even mean...AH...so yeah...they r yanking me along...gotta call me person and see what the fuck is goin on...i mean, i wanted to stay at this job for longer than 6 months till i get a real hang of it, but i didnt mean cancel my appt...i dunno...and i just spent all morning w/addicts in a basement sorting files...i dunno...i really just want more money, and a new job, but really more money...NOW...so i can quit stupid pathmark...stupid gov'ment...

...sometimes shit just makes u so happy for no good reason, esp when it shouldnt make u as happy as it does...i dont feel like going into it...i havent even told anybody about it, and not telling ppl something that makes me feel like this kills me...but its a feeling mixed w/overthinking that results in that feeling morphing into an inappropriate emotion...but i havent gotten that far yet, ya know, self delusion...still in the happy zone...still appropriate happy....wish i could say what im talkin about but w/the new xanga footprints, i see all yall readin my page...just take it this way, im happy...not about work tho...i have work tom morning and im still up cuz i just got home from 2nd job...i just wanna sleep forever...anyways...

...so yeah, mondays suck...i hate trying to sleep on mondays and what not...dont know why im not in bed now except ive been wasting time...finally got my letter ready for the public defenders office...called my contact there and hes gonna give them a heads up for me...so exciting...i would drop my current job and second job in a second...i cant wait (fingers crossed)...tomorrow is my first rally...wtf...we r forced to close shop tom and hop in a van to trenton to rally for funding...i dunno...its suppose to rain...unhappy about that...all in all tom should be ok...i dunno...anyways...ill let u know how the rally goes tom...maybe ill bring my camera if i remember...

...so i may have had my cellphone stolen, but today i got a letter from the public defenders office that im 8th in line for a position in morris county...i will walk out of my job in a heart beat...a gov't this soon ...i know, 8th isnt much, but maybe ill get more *fingers crossed*...dunno if im gonna make a police report about my phone...gotta actually go to the police station...so i dunno...however i also didnt know my phone was 240 bucks but eric got a new one for me for 130 including shipping off of ebay...so now i gotta wait for it in the mail and then activate it...ugh...anyways...almost work time...if i get a job at the pd office, ill quit pathmark so fuckin fast...